life is unpredictable

like finally,

i got to update my blog

it's been awhile seriously.

so much has happened recently

just like wat i mention in my today's blog's title, 

LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE

september, yea, a day in september

i still rmb vry clearly

everything's seems like it was just happened in yesterday

tht night

my heart nearly dropped whenever the phone rang

and tht night 

was the night tht

freak me out the most

everyone's were crying 

so am I

but what can we do apart from crying and waiting the news frm the doc?

yea we r human bt yet we cant do anything.

if only time can turns back

if only there's a what if 

flashing back

i used to complain

complain about everything

and never appreciate

your love to us 

still rmb you used to buy me food whenever i'm hungry 

i know 

u love me

and i love u too

yea, i do, but,

just that maybe i'm nt tht good in expressing my feelings?

anyway it's november now

rainbow after the rains?

nope it's nt 

but relieve tht u r back, 

thanks god tht u'r back

though thing seems nt so good now

but i believe that one day in the future, 

we will b reunion and eating tgt, shop tgt and more 

when will tht day come? 

waiting is the only thing tht we all can do now

Complicated Feelings

I think here is the only place i can expressed my feelings
my complicated feelings
haih
how to say
i actually knew that someone who cheated once can't be trusted,
but ....
HAIH

i should have think more positively
maybe a little everyday ?
i told myself
but honestly i still think about it
sometimes
cause memories r still memories
it existed once in my life

sometimes
i wish i could be more ruthless
stopping *** frm entering my life
time heals ?
i guess ?

i hate myself !
y am i still holding on at thr
y cant i just move on
when someone better  is waiting outside

anyway
i hope i have a lot of things to do right now,
so that my life will be busy
and i wouldn't have time to think about it

just goes with the flow~

i just realised i din even put a smiley face in this post
cheer up !!
tomorrow will be a better day !

Sem Break ~

my sem break started on 4th of jan
im happy
but boring though
as i dont have anythings to do
apart from shop, eat and sleep

but
i cooked stg today :)
some sort of sweet potatoes dessert
蕃薯糖水
all by myself
peeling off the skin of sweet potatoes and all :)
here comes the pictures :)

the sweet potatoes when it's in a untreated condition

peeling off the skin of sweet potatoes by using the stripping knife **dun really like this step as it is so dirty and the surface is covering with 'soil' 

cant even wash away the dirty stain ><

hahaha i guess i messed things up ?

finally !! :D

cut it into pieces

ready to boil :)

other ingredients , i thk it's name is sagu ?

pandan leaves 

and finally
boil like about an hour
it's done !
and here comes my tea
homemade sweet potatoes dessert
by me :)

my tea :DD

i actually spent my sem break quite well wat :P

haha~~ 

gonna make stg special next time 

stay tunned ;)

im still me :)

Lazyness

finally
i went through
all the assignments
and portfolio
it's study leave !!
hehe :)
though it should be the time for us
to do some revision for the final's
but
who cares
play comes first
**i noe im lazy
heee~~
but thts me
last minute work :P

seriously
i thk of changing myself
but dunno y
lazyness always attacks me ><
i felt sleepy once i opened the books
but i can stay awake to watch drama
like a boss ~

21/12
world end day ?!!
seriously?
i believe it though
hmmph
30% maybe ?
hahaha....
but im nt kinda worry bout tht :P

Haih
in another side
kip on urging myself to study
but
really dun have mood to start
**should say i'm lazy in another way
haha....
im those like
*last minute only i will feel nervous type*
hope tht i will change tis habits in the future :(

good night worlds ! ;)

im still me :)

Pack schedule

Steps into first day of december
everyone is busying with their life
so do I

How to say?
things all squeeze together
maybe my management of time goes wrong
yea
i admit
i wasn't good in managing time
and that's me ><

here's my 'schedule'
3/12- law exam
8/12- site visit
  ** was kinda worried bout it
9/12-11/12 -langkawi trip
  ** every1 r busying to rush their assignment on due date , and im going to skip my class just to play ><
11/12 -due date of ct assignment
  **i will be at langkawi that time ><
14/12- all assignments due date ( including portfolio, reports and bla bla bla...)
**portfolio-really no idea why r we doin tis, just like a summary, things tht u learned in each subject in the end of the semester ...in essay form !! ><

and final's is coming soon
gosh!! my head is spinning around and let's hope tht it will be fine though~

anyway i have to rush back to my law's reading
and i had just started 3 pages
cant concentrate ><
i cant concentrate or easy to fall asleep when it comes to studies
and i think this was what others called , LAZY @@
am wondering am i able to finish it ??
haih ~~
anyway Happy December !!
pls be good to me -_-

hope
im still me :)

Care

it's late night again
im still staying awake
suddenly thought of
care
the words CARE make me recalls bak lots of memories

still rmb
i used to talk to u
everything
my best listener
my best fren
the way u comfort me when i'm sad
the way u protects me
the 1 that always found out my sadness
when i'm pretending tht i'm fine
 in front of everyone
but
i'm glad
there's sum 1 thr still know tht i'm nt fine even though i pretend to be

i understand
there's a limit between us
the limit tht i would never crossed through

but i miss you
i miss the way u chilling me
i miss the way u talk to me

Though
life still goes on
even u r nt the 1
tht always talk or even text to me anymore
but
i'm still glad that
at least
there's still a memorable memories
between us
only us


im still me :)

sleepless night

it's 12:44am now
i should hv watching drama
爱上巧克力

before that
i gonna post a blog :)

sometimes in our life,
family
friendship
relationship
money
which 1 is more important ?

for me
i realised that family and friendship come first
they r always the 1 who by my side when i'm facing problems
they'll always b there
kept the best for us

i should hv learn to b independent
learn to facing the problems oneself
learn nt to rely on others that much
so that i can or manage the hard times by me myself

it's 12:52am
time for drama
night every 1 :)

im still me ;)